social networking, an implication of self awareness

This past few months, after a long days of hiatus, living an idyllic life, usually the boredom strucks so fast and you can't even tell which is which, the reality or the illusive one. I almost spend my whole days in front of the computer, do my writing (some journal and fiction work), studying math and TOEFL for my master degree (the time spread was just too long, and i got a little bit bored cause it takes almost a year, waiting in vain). Most people gonna say that im just so easily get bored, not patience enough, and bla bla bla. To be honest, almost my whole life im living being an inresponsible person, and i tend to love it. The thing is, i am become a late bloomer. Not gonna blame my parents or my environment, its just me who can't handle what i want, and what i need. It drowns me into my own depression. Not to be whining or complaining all around, its just what i've decided before, affecting me. Im become another person, and it is not me. I'm become an inferior person.

Now go to the technology side, i've become to easily dependence with this type of communication. It closed my self from my own self awareness, and it makes me too lazy too socialize. I've become too easily sharing own's mind, and somehow it's not a good thing, cause it's not even real. Making up my FB status with conundrum, it makes me easily cheat my own feeling, being dishonest, being, not me. Probably this is gonna be my ultimate u-turn. To be me..to be continued...